Friday, February 9, 2018

The Black Sheep Shadow by Ashley Terrell

The Black Sheep Shadow

Ashley Terrell

Genre: Memoir

Publisher: Ashley Terrell LLC

Date of Publication:  April 19, 2017

ISBN: 978-1-329-90288-6

Number of pages: 130 pages

Cover Artist: Freepik

Tagline: “We have symptoms of ‘The Black Sheep’. Aren’t you aware?”

Book Description: 

A unique book on strength and how a person can overcome difficult events in their lives.

Miles Away From Ordinary

I have always
been told that with success on any level come prices, struggles and journeys
that can take you off road, and from the things that you have always known. In
my mind as well as my life, I always considered myself one that would never
understand what it was to succeed. I did not have the best support system ­
especial y with any day ending in a Y.
Growing up, I
remember the white picket fence in some instances though they were blurry. What
I do remember the most is the feelings I bottled, the conversations that
pierced more than my self-esteem, but it factored into my confidence, my
beliefs and my lifestyle.
You never know
what someone is thinking or how their life has been affected no more than you
know how damaging words and actions can be.
As one that was
affected by the “what happens in this house, stays in this house” policy, I
began to not say much. Unlike other households that had an “open door policy”,
things were very strained in the Davis household. As time I grew older, I felt
like my opinion didn’t matter and affected how I treated others. It also had a
bearing on how I treated myself.
My life isn’t
ordinary. I was not a person that uses to be happy. I was not a person that
enjoyed company of friends, nor did I have the desire to be a socialite. I was
determined to come from under the stigma of being the black sheep.
In all my years
of living, the thing I found most profound is the power of God. God will have
you speak to someone to deliver His words because He knows that person who is
consulting with you will listen. That is trust. When God began to use people to
speak to me, it was groundbreaking. It was scary. I never thought I was special
enough to have such a privilege.
As I was sitting
with my mentor to write an alternative book, we were brainstorming on
paraphrasing when suddenly I blurted out, “There is no real word to describe my
brother being murdered. There is no real word to express my darkness. People
see the success of what I have done, not the pain that I had to endure to get
Within that
moment, I knew my time has come ­ I didn’t know for what though. He slowly
looked around and I noticed his leg overreacting under the table.
“That’s your
story,” he hissed. I paused. For the first time, I felt like a big, fat
old-school Jawbreaker was lunged in my throat.
“No one wants to
hear my story. They want to know how to go from sleeping on air mattresses and
eating Ramen Noodles to how to go on tour, promote and do the stuff celebrities
do,” I replied.
Just off the
tidbits I had told my mentor, I never seen his face more flushed. “If you don’t
tell your story,” he pauses and looks away, “then the Devil wins.”
I notice the
goosebumps that wildly appeared on his arms. His body is still overreacting.
The scent of the air changes. His advice is no longer suggestive, it is pushing
and piercing.
“Your story is
the raw truth, this book here we are editing is pretty. We need truth. Help
someone break out from feeling alone. Help others take a step forward to want
to be better. Your story is compelling and can do that,” he told me.

For the first
time ever, I confidently agreed with him- in silence.

About the Author:

Ashley Terrell is founder of BSC and Co. She resides on the East Coast where she enjoys blissful sunsets and sounds of ocean waves.


Interview with Ashley Terrell
Where do you get inspiration for your book, The Black Sheep Shadow?
       Darkness was my inspiration for publishing my memoir, The Black Sheep Shadow. Living in darkness, unknown of who you are, is an undertone many don't speak to enlighten. It's been easier to address being different, or the black sheep, by NOT addressing the topic at all. This IS the time to address the topic of individuality.
     Being aware of the darkness is the inspiration. Allowing yourself to be an example to helps others elevate to accept their light, or place, is the reward - celebrating life happily.
How did you do research for The Black Sheep Shadow?
    Writing a memoir can be tedious depending on your age! (laughs) During writing The Black Sheep Shadow, I had to focus on the events that moved me the most. The beginning of self-discovery took place around my teenage years into adulthood. In doing so, I wanted to be sure I painted a vivid picture for that time frame of my life. I feel that you experience the most between your teenage and adulthood years.
    Writing The Black Sheep Shadow had emotional research as well. You're suppose to grow with thinking and feeling from who you were in the past. There were a few emotions I had to channel myself to feel again to have the right feeling on paper.
Do you have another profession besides writing?
    Food has always been my first passion. Many of my emotions go into my cooking. That's what makes it all the different.
    Feeling so, I developed my specialty food brand, Stella Bistro Foods.
If you could go back in time, where would you go?
    I wouldn't want to go back into time because I WOULDN'T know where to go! I was a black sheep, remember? (laughs)
    If I could go anywhere, it would be forward. There's no better reward than to guide others out of darkness into light.
What is your next project?
    The visual language of art has a few projects launching for me in 2018! Stella Bistro Foods is at the top of the list following my upcoming publications, so the best yet to come!

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